Today is Wednesday. In a little over twelve hours it will be Thursday. Then Friday. And just like that the week will be over. But five minutes ago I was waking up and it was Monday! How does that happen and is it only because I am so much older now? Is it just me or does it seem as if time is going by at an accelerated rate? Please make it slow down!
Perhaps it’s just my perspective. I want time to go by slowly because I don’t have as many years ahead of me as I do behind me. So I watch it more than I did as a young woman. Children generally want time to go by faster, so they can grow up, have more privileges, and finally be in charge! Little do they know that being an adult brings many freedoms but also lots of responsibility.
I’m noticing the speed of time a lot more these days. Thinking about my mortality I guess. And that is due to my sister’s passing. I’m sure it brings death to the forefront of my mind. I don’t like that. I want to feel like I will live forever, even though I know it’s not true. It is what it is, right?
The older you get the harder it is to hide from reality, even while trying to dig in your heels in your happy place. My husband turns 80 next year, and that scares me. What if he leaves me alone to fend for myself? All these years together and now I’m alone? I contemplate these things. If only my sister were still alive. I wouldn’t be giving it as much thought if she were.
Time flies when you’re having fun but what about when you’re bored? Yesterday I came home from one of my new workouts at the gym, took a shower, ate lunch and then crashed on the couch for the rest of the day. FOR THE REST OF THE DAY! I read two different books and scrolled through FB for two hours! I was too tired to move so even if I had thought of something productive I could be doing, I wouldn’t be doing it! I kept looking at the clock. 2:30 became 3:15 became 4:35. I was slightly bored and kept wondering when it would be cocktail hour and pj’s. Time moved slowly for me then.
The truth is that time moves at the speed of time, no faster, no slower. It’s all in my head. The trick is to make your time meaningful, which does not mean you have to be constantly productive. Rest is important, chilling out is important. It recharges you so that you can do the productive things. I used to not allow myself rest until I had completed all of my tasks for the day. I’ve always been that way. I kind of still am, truth be told. But I do allow myself to rest, do something frivolous or do nothing at all. It’s important not only for my brain but also my body and soul.
Does time fly for you or does it move at a snail’s pace? Is it tied to how much sleep you get or whether you have something fun to do? Are you bored and therefore watch the clock, willing it to go faster so your day will hurry up and become the next day? Remember, it’s all in your head. God bless.